process

It has been nearly 5 months since My husband went to be with Jesus. I still awaken in tears and go to sleep in tears. I know the "normal" grieving process is from 6 months to 1 year, but each individual grieves in their own way and in their own time period. I have tried to give his things away, but each time I put something in a donation box I have a panic attack and cannot finish it. I did give my sons and grandsons some of his personal belongings I thought he would like them to have. We lived on social security so, we are not wealthy, but he had a few things to pass on.