Charlie

For the past 32 years I have held the title of "wife". Now, after my husband went home to be with Jesus several months ago I am  titled "widow". This is an extremely difficult transition to deal with. Although I am still the much loved daughter of the Most High God, it is very devastating to say the least. I awaken each morning and he is not there; I go to bed each night and he is not there; I start to prepare dinner, when I feel like eating, and he is not there to "help me" in the kitchen. I feel like half of me is missing and I am not me anymore. I still cannot go to the grocery store without breaking down and having panic attacks often.

Charlie went to be with Jesus & I miss him with all my heart. You don't often realize how much you actually love someone until you realize they will never walk through your door again; never snuggle with you again; will never say " I love you" again; all the everyday things we take for granted. Death is permanent & my advice is to tell those you love that you love them each time you see them. Make memories as often as you can with those you love. Take lots of pictures and videos. Record your parents and grandparents, if you are fortunate enough to still have them with you, about their lives when they were younger, or even write it down. You will truly treasure these things when they're gone. I tell my children and grandchildren I'll see them later & not goodbye.